I am in the dark
Looking towards the light
Leaning towards the light
Some days I stand in the sun
Fueled by hope of good things to come
I thrive
Other times the sky is dark
The rain pelts down
Things are out of control
Like this picture I took one evening in my classroom
Four years ago
The storm passed
The brightness of the sun stunned us
One of my girls jumped up on the windowsill
To admire the double rainbow that had formed
The moment that was captured resonated with me
So I decided to paint it
In it I see so much symbolism
I am her
Standing in the dark room
Looking towards the light
Leaning towards the light
I think that’s what hope is
It is seeing the light while stuck in darkness
It is one thing to be hopeful
When you are outside dancing under a rainbow
And quite another when you feel like
Maybe that rainbow was never meant for you
Not too long ago I felt that God gave me a specific confirmation
But the promise shattered
Thick shadows surrounded me
I was disillusioned, frustrated, and distrusting
I was in that dark room
But the sun still shinned and the rainbows still appeared
Whether I wanted them or not
I found myself perched on the windowsill looking out
I saw sunshine on the other side
Wondering when and if it would be mine.
For now, I’m stuck under the rainbow
The meeting point of sunshine and storm
I am her
Standing
Looking
Leaning
Knowing that the room will not always be dark